I turn 23 years old in 34 mins.
I have been through a rollercoaster at 22.
I’ve fallen in and out of love twice. Heart broken once; broke a heart once. As painful as both were, a motto I live by- time was not wasted if you learnt something from it, helped me through a great deal. I spent a lot of the time during the healing process being introspective, trying to remember the ambitious, open minded younger self that somehow managed to get me to where I am today. She didn’t like boys- what did she spend her time doing instead? Answer was, being hopeful for her future and dreaming of a better life. At this point of life I have already realised that dreams can come true. You work for them. They don’t’come falling into your lap.
Being introspective and reflecting on those relationships the lesson learnt, I realised what I wanted in a partner; how I would like to be as a partner; and most of all, how appreciative I am for the friends and family I have. They have always been priceless to me but I came to appreciate them even more when I realised I never had to look to hard for someone to help me feel less lonely. I also came across a couple this year who despite their good intentions most of the time, being so in love and so dependent on each other led to them having a world closed off from everyone else that unfortunately led to them coming across as a bit delusional. To have such a wide range of friends, a wide range of opinions and views on the world is an asset that can help you better understand the world and the people around you. Having someone you can rely on to agree to your every opinion is definitely not the kind of person I need.
I did my first non-family overseas holiday. To South Korea. The food was amazing, the people were amazingly polite and the winter weather was beautiful and crisp. The shop sign lights filled street after street, illuminating the cold night, leading us to a beautiful bibimbap with raw beef or a souvenir shop plastered with young, handsome kpop faces on all types of memorabilia.
Of course, the holiday would not have been possible had I not gotten my first adult job. I sit at a desk, 9am to 5pm. My whole day is dictated by the incoming stampede of emails and the incessant and unwelcome whispers of my coworker who doesn’t seem to understand that their tips and reminders are coming in one ear and out the other, not because I don’t intend on acting on your advice, but because I am actually in the middle of doing something else right now and you have just made me forget what it was.
I fulfilled my goal of losing weight. More importantly though and much more significant is that I’ve managed to do so in a way I can sustain. I’ve slowly changed the way I look at food and have therefore changed my habits. I noticed that my snacking habits was just another form of the instant gratification that we have surely all become accustomed to in this age of technology. After becoming more patient and realising that being hungry for an hour til dinner came was not in fact life-threatening, I came to enjoy and appreciate my meals more. I also began to excercise regularly, looking at my energy intake and ensuring it somewhat matched my energy expenditure.Exercising also has become an amazing stress reliever to me. I am extremely happy with my current fitness. I enjoy long walks without stressing about how tired I am. My confidence has sky-rocketed.
22 has been good. I am actually 23 now as I have spent more than 34 mins typing this out. I should also make some honourable mentions to other notable events from this year- I have acquired a cat, I met a lot more family members, I organised my closet and have managed to remember how much I love chilling alone.